I bought into that story and spent my early years being a "good" student, a "good" daughter, a "good" friend. I had no problem getting internships and jobs right out of college in the entertainment industry. And I was "good" at those, too.
But I knew I could be SO much more. I felt like I was living a lie. I was an artist ready to take flight but I needed the courage to finally live the life I was dreaming about!
At thirty, I decided to give it my all and move to New York City to pursue my BIG dream. After a year and a half of following every Behind-the-Music special (I bartended even though I don't drink),
I started to crumble. Pursuing my passion full-time exposed every insecurity I had, the biggest being "I'm not good enough" to be successful. I couldn't get past that limiting belief so, I went back to a "good" paying corporate job.
One night, a few months into my new job, I got mugged. What seemed like a horrific experience ended up being the best thing to happen to me! That moment became the catalyst to my spiritual awakening.
Up until that point, I was trying so hard to keep it together. I didn't allow myself to process the pain and shame of my unrealized childhood dream. Once I got a literal kick-in-the-butt from the universe, I finally gave myself permission to feel it all. And I learned the most important lesson: We can't escape our pain. We must learn to feel it all in order to process, heal and transform it for good.
From that point on, I read everything I could on the topic of Self-Improvement. I understood if I wanted to change my life, I had to change my thoughts about what I believed was possible for me.
From Los Angeles to New York, I captured my journey as artist through intimate video confessions. Way before social media or Youtube, I learned the value of expressing my thoughts and feelings to a camera. This process allowed me to find my true voice. I learned to be vulnerable, honest and trust my intuition. I didn't know I would keep recording all those years but I knew it was therapy for my soul. And in 2014, I edited hundreds of hours of footage to create a full-length film called, The Dream Diaries. Now I can use my life story as evidence that you, too can create a life filled with all the things that light you up! I went from being a victim to life's circumstances to becoming a powerful Co-Creator. It is the story of who you become along the way towards your dreams because who you become is worth it!
I spent my fortieth year tackling fears around aging, going after my dreams and finding true love. Instead of dreading another year older, turning forty became the most beautiful & transformative years of my life!
I did things, like: perform in a burlesque show (pictured), join the skipping club, introduce myself to all my neighbors in my NYC apartment, try on wedding dresses while being single, hand-deliver love notes to strangers around NYC, pose nude for 5-hour anatomy & sketch drawing class (while on my period!), participate in co-ed naked yoga, attend a cuddle party, go to an adult gymnastics class, join a Flash Mob, and ask a cute stranger for a kiss on the cheek, sing on the subway (twice), Busk at Washington Square Park and so much more!
My favorite weekend activity
Hanging in my Hammock! Best purchase of Quarantine.
a hobby that i love
SO many...dancing and singing, cooking, cracking myself up!
a truth that usually surprises people
I've never experimented with drugs, including pot or cigarettes!
things I enjoy
words to live by
"Be patient. Miracles take a little longer than settling does." - Maryam Hasnaa